Who is Your Defender?

A funny thing happened to me Friday night.

Sam was out and I had plans to go do a few things, maybe see the Mr. Rogers movie. I was about to phone a friend when something stopped me, right there in my kitchen.

It was a line from the song Defender by Rita Springer but there was no music on, it just hit my mind.

“All I did was stay still. And all I did was worship.”

For more than an hour, I couldn’t move, I couldn’t leave my kitchen, didn’t want to leave, I just played the song over and over again.

After the first 10 minutes or so I was like, “Oh ok this is what we’re doing?” So I grabbed a candle and lit it and I sang along with the song over and over.

Not to sound crazy, (but you should know that I am) I was on my knees, then crying, then laughing, then I stood up and literally opened my heart center for the first time all week and said,

“Ok, whatever you want.”

Sometimes I think the best thing about me is just Jesus. When I release control and let him do his thing, my life is so much less tense. I’m fuller and more interesting and I care less about what people think.

The whole time I felt the Lord say:

Because of me, this is available to you any time you want.

It’s worth mentioning that this song played a big role at the Intermissionary Gathering in Nashville last fall. It was a mantra for me for five days straight and I did my best to just stay still and let him work.

And of course, he did, because that’s what he does.

I don’t know who needs this today, but the song is eight minutes. Unless you play it over and over, then it could be hours.

Maybe rest in it for a minute.