Why am I sharing such a humiliating story? Because it's instructive to all of you who want to make your lives matter, live your purpose, master something, change some unjust political structure, live on fire and on purpose. You have to know that it's going to cost you some sweat.
It wasn't that I couldn't work hard, I had just learned how not to. Nothing great ever comes out of that posture because it's reactive, not creative.